do you ever wonder why God puts people in your life that you know you cant be around.  why he allows you to meet people that will greatly alter your course of life.  but that only end up causing pain.  they dont help, i mean you may grow from them, but the process is so far from good that you cant imagine this was the path that he truely had instore for you.  its true that all that pain and all that hurt molded who you are today, but does that mean your actually better than you would have been.  we all have choices in people or things we do.. but do we get to choose or does he have an ultimate goal for our lives.  or have we lost the meaning of "free will" that he entended for us.  do we really get to choose whatever we want as long as it is godly.  but if that is true than the thought of a calling really is thrown out the window.  he may have given us desires but does that equal calling.  you have choice A and choice B.  is one really any better than the other at all.  they are so far from being the same, but does it really matter which you pick.  will god really use either one.